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The big, black dog of depression and self-doubt tackled me today, hard.  So I've been investing my energy to beating it away with a Stick of Awesomeness, but it hasn't worked as well as I wanted it to.

I guess this is just the price I must pay for my creativity.  Every artist has their demons, right?  Man, that sounds so arrogant when I see it typed out in front of my face.

But that doesn't make it any less true.

The Black Dog got me down today, but tomorrow WILL be a different story.  Yes, tomorrow will be better!

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  1. UnknownAugust 18, 2014 at 1:00 PM

    It's not arrogance, it's acceptance of who you are. Everyone has demons but creatively harnessing those demons and making them work for ya? That's talent:)

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